The ultimate fate of the matronly jacket threads… not quite Bohemian Opera (whatever that is…)
Remember the jacket, pictured on my dining room table a few entries ago? The jacket that I indicted as matronly and sentenced to dismemberment (“off with its arms! and its collar too!”). And then abandoned while I soliloquized about opera. Which was fun for me, but probably did nothing for the jacket.
Well, eventually, I left off music and philosophy, and picked up the threads of my thrift store jacket project. I did cut off the arms and collar. The seamstress version of demolition. Extreme measures, and I have to admit that once they were taken, I experienced momentary remorse and panic. But I got past it. I realized that really, I had nothing to lose. Nothing to lose, what an adventure, and I was still in a chopping mood. So I cut up an old pair of my husband’s jeans, making long strips (most of them unnecessarily biased), still trying to come up with a coherent strategy. Inspired by the ruffles and roses and raw, frayed edges I’d seen when I ventured into an Anthropologie recently, I experimented. I foraged. I made messes. I worked sporadically, bemusedly, sometimes wretchedly, sometimes with tentative delight. [continue reading…]
Lilies from a friend’s garden, unknown name (the lilies), left in washington (lilies and friend). I miss my friend, and the lilies.
Groundhog Day today. My daughter Meisha came home from school full of anticipation for spring. We’re all full of anticipation for spring. It’s a February thing, which started in January (when it was a January thing). But Meisha’s optimism, because of the groundhog ritual (and despite its outcome), can embrace and then look beyond whatever is left of winter—however long it might linger—because she is that certain of the eventuality of spring. She wanted to celebrate. So we picked up Chinese, watched Groundhog Day, and nibbled on the remnants of my most recent Pear Danish attempt (this time, the pears were swimming in sauce made with lemon, lime, and pineapple juice infused with lavender. Promising). [continue reading…]
Perfume and makeup are my witch-wares?
With silk stockings past my knees, and heels?
I think not (For my heart, though flawed, is harmless as a dove).
But perhaps, my lipsticked mouth to your round eyes
unwittingly tells tales?
My hands reached for my sister
Our arms laced round each other
til our fingers caught like wires.
Our faces fixed in terror,
pressed together, stared together
at the mink who (now a Wolf, or Ghost)
Glittered, careless staring, glittered sly and bold
Held the way before us
held captive just beyond our familiar country road.
And the distant morning mountains slept like giants in the cold.
I shouldn’t say eleventh hour. It’s more like the ten and a half-th hour. I can write that, because it’s my blog and for some reason, no one ever writes or calls to say Hey! You spelled something wrong! Or Hey! What are you? A grammatical deviant? I fear no repercussion.
I am almost ready. Almost ready for the art festival on Saturday. The last few days (week) I have required quite a bit of self-talk to keep moving (this is like the interval training I mentioned awhile ago). Painting frames, adjusting dabs and glazes on paintings (yikes! this one is too stark and dark! that one is too light and bright! This one should be tossed entirely! It’s all terrible! What was I thinking?). Adjusting in this way is rarely healthy, rarely beneficial. It’s like looking at your face with one of those mirrors that magnifies and exaggerates every feature, even every pore. What good does that do? None. Nobody’s face ever looks that big or scary in real life, unless you’re having an IMAX experience. There’s just no place in the real world for that kind of magnification. Not even when we start speaking with exclamation points. [continue reading…]
I am re-inventing my January strategies and traditions. Because while January seems to me to be a series of dreary, cold low notes, I still hope to see many, many more Januarys; it would be ridiculous to simply endure them all, as if they were punishment. If I send optimistic, hopeful thoughts out into the universe, maybe they will come back to me as a dozen healthy, happy Januarys. I wish I’d thought of this strategy sooner.
Reeling with a severe cold that felt almost flu-like, I drove with my husband to the airport (again, again) on Sunday morning. We talked about essential things, the sort of things that blur my mascara. Good for Us, for sure, but not good for head colds. I kissed him goodbye, my body and soul mostly numb to the blow of parting. I was nearly a third of the way home when he called his own cell phone, which happened to be lying on the floor next to me in the van—unnoticed til that moment, to let me know he had forgotten it (the cell phone). So after my return to the airport to hand off the phone, and my drive again back home, I felt hectic and disheveled, with no time to get everything and everyone ready and off to church. Nora had bedhead, and Meisha’s hair looked just as gnarly, though she assured me she’d hit it with a comb. We were so late there was no place left to sit but the very front of the chapel (and I wasn’t about to go there).
Returning from a wonderful choir concert, Michaelyn and I passed our favorite local gas station/convenience store. We’ve bonded with this place for several reasons, the most important of which is its sign out front. The sign bears the name of the establishment (“Hoagies”), a philanthropic greeting to the masses of motorists that pass by, its fare du jour, and the price of that fare. Today the sign read “Drive Safe Corn dogs 49 cents”. Other days the sign admonishes Pizza Stix to Drive Safe. Or it worries about the vehicular safety of Burritos (79 cents). In the summer, it is preoccupied with Frazil hazards, and more expensive about it too (somewhere over a dollar). One day last spring Maurya and I were beyond entertained to read “Drive Safe corndogs 49 cents”, just as a man pulling out of the gas station casually turned his face towards us and stuffed an entire corn dog in his mouth.
and you…I’ve grown tired of the grind of your smug incessant wind. Captious talk, informed and sly. I’ve locked my window against your crevice seeking fingers. You have nothing new to say. Your mind is fine but way too cold. And dead. Two long months ago I turned my head away, and now, my seeds arranged and on display I wait for sun, and growth, and day.