Ezra and NoraI wonder if they only exist in Northern Utah, those nondescript white vans with the simple lettering “Incident Management” painted down their sides.  I don’t recall seeing them anywhere else, though maybe they escaped my notice during my preoccupied thirties in Washington.  I can’t remember now if they have flashing lights (I think they do).  But I’ve seen them everywhere here—there must be a fleet of them— and I always wonder, when I see one, just what incident they’ve been summoned to manage.  Domestic disasters?  The vans look a little underdressed for such major disturbances as earthquakes, tornados, terrorists, or flooding (and too local for other aquatic catastrophes such as Watergate and Whitewater).

And so I am left perplexed.  What DO they mean by incident?  How do they intend to manage it?  Who are “they”?  And how are they summoned?  Could I call them, if I had an incident? Or do they just suddenly show up in my moment of need.

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Sister Where Art ThouMy sister Andrea pleaded. She pleaded a month ago in a post on my Facebook wall (which otherwise is a minimalist space–spare, sparse, and neglected by its owner) for me to write more blogs. Which plea smote my heart and tickled my vanity and led me, eventually—in spurts and lapses— to this very moment, in which my fingers find their cautious way once more across my laptop keyboard. Writing who knows what; after the longest quiet interval yet, I battle not just writer’s block, but trepidation. Which trepidation means (some friends complain that my word choice is foreign to them) that there is at least some fear—let’s call it agitation— about writing (I know, it’s lame); it is possible, even, that at some point trembling could occur (that would be from the Latin “trepidare”: to “be agitated, tremble”).

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Running with the Cold

Cold Mountain I have discovered that I can run in the cold.  In well below freezing temps.  I thought something bad would happen, like (for instance) I would get really, really, really cold. Miserably cold. I hate being cold. And my toes, nose, and fingers (and the pink lining of my lungs) would be frostbitten, which frostbite might lead eventually to death or dismemberment. But no. No, I can run in the cold without permanently damaging my pieces and parts.

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My sabbatical has ended; I’d like to talk about banana bread now.

I make the best whole wheat chocolate banana bread in the world–no no–in the History of the world. If I do say so myself. It might not rate beyond divine in an everyday street/post-football game taste test; I suspect that only extraordinary persons would truly appreciate the supreme nuances of my banana bread. But you can see that Nora loves it. Stray friends and relatives with an affinity for chocolate, browsing through my kitchen, cannot leave it alone. It is, frankly, to die for.

I am not going to simply share my recipe. No, that would be too easy, and way too brief. I’ve been away for awhile; I’m back, and I have things to say. Prepare yourselves for my banana bread ramble. While the story is not as spectacular as the bread itself, it does stray into far flung tangents, culminating in irrelevant–perhaps even exotic– regions. How fun is that.

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Necessary Sabbaticals

Crisis. Everyone faces them; most of us make it through them. Usually they alter our perspective. Hopefully we learn good things by crisis. Hopefully we see better on the other side. Perhaps we are even more gracious and graceful in the end.

In the midst, though. Grace under fire is…well, just this side of impossible. Not impossible, but. Sometimes our knuckles are too white above clenched fingers to allow them to play our music. Our teeth set too tight to smile for our friends or for strangers..

And that is where I have been lately, where I am now. In crisis. White knuckled. Huddled over wounds, looking for ways to heal. Not to be melodramatic or mysterious or anything… Like I said, we’ve all been there at one time or another; what I suffer is common to us all. But if I opened my soul enough to write for real about it, I am afraid ugly, distorted things…things I’m trying to unravel and understand and get past would come spilling out. I won’t write here about my crisis. Not yet. Someday, after this tight sabbatical, I may allude to it. Or not. Someday I may have a glorious, lightning-streaked epiphany about how to see the story, so that I can phrase it in truthful and real and hopeful ways. Share-able ways. And then… it would look ordinary, possibly even boring. Nothing to wonder and exclaim about. And I would think, well my goodness. After all that, this only?

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Regarding the Event

Regarding the EventIt was great.  The art reception was great.  Thank you, everyone who came and took it in!  I hadn’t known what to expect, and I was pleasantly surprised.  There was a warm sense of community and welcome amongst the artists who’d gathered to show their work.  I liked that.  The atmosphere and visitors (many of whom were family and friends, including a couple of babies) were casual and friendly and appreciative (barring a tiny gaggle of teenagers who came just for the food).  And Maurya did come and play the baby grand with her lovely gentle fingers for awhile, after her dad had sufficiently nagged her (she was on a date).  It was all delightful: the guests, the other artists (whose art I gratefully mingled mine with), the atmosphere.   Having no real previous experience of my own, I had been vaguely worried that guests (if any came at all) would expect the event to go off like something I’d seen in a movie, where the artists were cerebral and mysterious and devastatingly neurotic and everyone dressed in chic, snug, expensive, unapproachable black and ate tiny fancy appetizers with names ordinary people couldn’t pronounce.  [continue reading…]

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Announcing An Art Reception

Art Reception November 5th, 2010, 6:30-9:00pm

Announcing An Art ReceptionI’ve been asked to show some of my work in the Ogden Arts Gallery during the months of November and December.   There will be an art reception this Friday night (November 5, 2010) from 6:30- 9:00 at the gallery; it is on the northeast corner of Washington and 25th street.  Anyone and everyone is/are (?) invited.  I peeked in on a few Friday night Ogden Art Walk open houses on 25th this summer (the Art Walk on Friday night coincides with the reception)… it is fun to take a  quick (or slow) stroll past local art; 25th street is one of my favorite places in Ogden.  Please come!

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Saltwater Sandals

Looking for agatesAbsolute favorite place to go for vacation:  The Oregon Coast.  Took the family (all but Michaelyn, who stayed behind to work and socialize) a couple of weeks ago; Frank had just accepted a job and asked for a little time before he started.  Rented a house between Newport and Waldport overlooking the beach…was it Seal Rock?  Seal Cove?  Something like that.  And we listened to the waves and splashed in them and flew kites and combed the beach and were content.  That’s all, really.  Feet in sand and gravel and water, playing and looking for cool beach stuff.

And I learned it is good to be still sometimes.  To be quiet and let good things come to me

We were eager to hunt agates; there was a big jar of impressive ones on the coffee table of the house we rented.  We read  how it is easier to find them at low tide, after the ocean has done its washing and pounding and sifting of the beaches.  Easier to see them with the sunlight glowing behind them (many agates are nearly transparent).  Easier to see them when they’re wet.

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